When the small door closes...

When God tells us to do something and we know it's the right thing to do, why is it so hard when we want to do something else? Are we not lesser than God? Does God not have the greater picture of what's going on? Doesn't He want what's best for us?

Yesterday, I found out that I was not accepted into the Navy financial Management Program. Finally, after months of the process and weeks of waiting I get the bad news... Oh but God is good.

Yesterday before I found out I wasn't accepted into the program I had lunch with a very friendly, and outgoing National leader of the FCA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes). Her name is Marilou and she wanted to get to know me and hear my plans for the future. She also, just wanted to help me out and give me some advice.

So, we're talking and I'm letting her know what's going on with my situation and she becomes my inside ticket to FCA. She tells me about several opening in FCA and how to handle the whole fun raising situation. She gives me several people's numbers to get in contact with for training and job opportunities.

It's just funny how God prepared my heart to receive the information about not getting into the Navy program by opening another opportunity that He wants me to take. It's like my mom use to say to me: when God closes a door He opens a window. And I think that window is the window of opportunity and blossoming growth that God wants me to take.

I know being young and in this position isn't going to be easy, but with the Lord on my side I can do anything. Greater is He that is in me than who is of the world. I will have a place and do what God has laid out for me as long as I continue to use God's gifts for His Glory. Now that's throwing spears at life.

Continue to keep me in your prayers and let me know what you think, or any other prayer requests that are known to you. Thanks again for reading and God be with you.
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Sitting in waiting...

Why is it that waiting is so difficult? You would think that not having to do anything would be relaxing and easy to do, right? Then why does it stress you out, make you have anxiety and even drive you a little crazy? :)

I don't know what I was even thinking when I thought I might want to throw at SECs. I am only a little under 8 weeks from surgery and one wrong movement could send me straight back to that operating table. Plus, probably dead once my mom would get wind of it. Lol

So I blame it on the waiting! :D I'm waiting to know everything. Waiting to heal up from surgery and doing rehab everyday, waiting to hear from this federal job in the Navy that I really would want and just waiting to know what I'm going to do with my life from this point on.

I know one thing for sure though. I'm still going to throw next season. I've got too good of an arm and too much talent to just give up and not throw a stick or two. Plus, I love this stuff man! It's easy for me and just being out there makes me so excited and pumped. Track and field is awesome!

So, working or not working... Or school or no school... I'll be on the track lifting some weights, running some sprints and throwing some spears!

Pray for my sanity and keeping my mind clear and motivated. It's hard when I want to move on, but I know I'm going to miss my coach, friends and teammates soo much... And even maybe this place called Georgia. :) I love you guys, because Christ loved us first.
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Decisions, decisions

Why is it that at this age, everyone just assumes that graduating college students should know what they want from their lives and what path is right to choose? I just don't get it. A few years ago our parents would question every move we would make, yet now suddenly a few years later we're responsible to make major life decisions. Yet, truthfully we've all been making as many mistakes as we possibly could get away with all college life-long.

So how do we get away from this self-destructing behavior and make the right decisions? Well, I guess I'm not the one to ask since I am a recent college grad in exactly that situation.

I've been in waiting mode forever now... Well not really, but that's what is seems like. I'm waiting to hear from this job I'm really looking forward to and it would be a great fit for me. I applied in Late January and have gone through the whole screening and interview process. The waiting is killing me!!! I just kinda want to know what I'm going to do with my life. Plus, I've got a few other things that I need to decide now that might effect the rest of my life.

I've been presented with an opportunity to throw at our conference meet [a stand throw of course], but to throw none the less. I'm contemplating what I should do. I recently found out that the whole "medical red shirt" is pretty much out the window. So it would be my last chance to compete as a college athlete and a chance to be there to root my teammates on. Yet, on the other hand, its a risk! Who knows what could happen? I would be a little over 8 weeks out from surgery, which can still be a very dangerous period. So, what to do?

Now, know that me stand throwing would place in the top 5 at SECs and this is counting on girls hitting their PRs. I could even possibly place in the top three and go to regionals. Yet, is it worth it?

I can't go through the pain of having to go through surgery again if something were to happen, yet I would wear a hard core brace to prevent that from happening.

Oh woe is me... I need to make a decision. I have until Monday morning to decide. What to do? What to do?

God is on my mind and I'm asking for the right thing to do. Please pray for me and if you have any ideas let me know. Thanks.
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